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On Wednesday - my friend L.M.M. lost her mother.

People keep asking if it was unexpected - I don't know how to answer. Yes Mrs. B. was ill - but do you ever expect to lose your Mom? Or do you just realize that it is inevitable? My grandma is 88 - I know that she will not be here forever - but I don't expect to lose her . .

Part of what makes this so hard - is the realization that we are not kids anymore - we have kids now. So at our age - our parents are aging and death is a natural progression. But it feels wrong.

I only met Mrs. B. twice - but I have known her daughter for almost 8 years.

And from the first day we met - L.M.M. has been my girl.

When I wanted to get even with a hussy who was spending time with my then lying, cheating and now ex-boyfriend - she offered to put her newborn and toddler in the mini-van and drive me out to east hell maryland to tear some sh-t up and when I came to my senses 20 minutes later - and said never mind - she just smiled and said okay.

We have cried over AMEX bills that were more than our take home pay.

We have spent hours talking about everything and nothing in particular.

She has given me some sage advice that she got from her Mom . . my favorite being " Don't let yourself go after marriage - because your husband might lose his mind - and if you have to leave his ass - no other man wants a dumpy woman with 2 kids that are not his." I have decided this only applies if you were not dumpy to begin with . . . but I love it nevertheless.

I wonder what stories my kids will tell about me someday -I hope that I give them enough material so that there friends are quoting The Divine Miss K on the regular.

I am off to bed - because in the words of MommyDearest24 "Nothing Good Happens After 11:00 pm".